January blues

It's become that time of the year where I have genuinely given up with the majority of things in my life. From being on time to work to attending college, I have no motivation. 

This 'phase' or whatever you'd like to call it tends to be a yearly thing that lasts for a good few months. (At this current moment I feel like I'm the voice over on a documentary channel haha) Maybe this feeling is common throughout teen years, who knows it could just be me. 

I only have a few months left of college now but weirdly enough, time is going fast but at the same time, it seems to be dragging. It's a strange feeling and a even stranger feeling to try to put into words. 

The thought of spending a minimum of 3 years studying something an university seriously scares me. At the moment I'm just getting by but at university there's a lot more pressure than college or even 6th form.... But I'm keeping my options open and I'm going to look into other fields just so that I have a back up plan come August when university is a matter of weeks away. 

My entry might seem a little disfigured but these are my thoughts at 2am on a now Tuesday morning. I'm tired and my mind won't let me sleep. Apologies.